good charlotte and linkin park...proud of it too!!!!

Made my friend's cut.....

If you didn't say anything, I most likely took you off of my list.

If you did want to stay....comment.

<3

The MTV Crib thing- about the cars is on.....and I gotta see my CHINGY part for the 2nd time. wo0w0o

I sware that boy is toooooo fine.
yum. Gosh I wanna fuck him.

I am so fucking full. blaaaahhh.
Its hard to eat that much food when you've got a killeeeeeeer hangover.


So the night I thought I was gonna talk to Justin, I guess I didn't.
For the past 3 days its been all good...I think he feels bad- coz hes been paying attention to me at his friends houses...coming into the room I'm in just to give me a kiss and a smack on the ass for no reason at all.
Its like the old days.
I don't know whats going on. But I like it.



Me and Steph dorve all the way to the west side yesterday....got BLAZED and got lost like 3 fucking times- I think hahahahaaaa It was so much fun, we were so high. yeah \m/




I think Kristen moved back home. Time to killa-bitch.




p e a c e<3

omgosh I am so ripped.

I love my boyfriend :) I love maryjane :)

I had a damn good day...and it's not even over :)

I went to the base with my dad & grandma. Was there from 12 to 6!
I love men in uniforms YUM.
Helped my grandma pick out x-mas presents.

Then went back to her house and took Jen to Don Pablos.
I missed her. I was so mad at her...and you know what- that was dumb. From now on I'm not going to be mad at people until I know the WHOLE story.
She explained everything to me and now I understand alot more. She quit drinking so much. She doesn't go out anymore and get herself into trouble.
So probably going to do something with her this weekend. I hope so <3

Now I think I'm going out to Dan's. Gonna drink alittle I hope.
It's weird, these past 2 nights I've come home..and I haven't been with him all day. I think this is good.

Gotta go get Steph.

p e a c e<3
i gotta poop.

I started this community. And I guess I forgot about it, until today.

It's for girls, girls who smoke :)
Please join, and help me with banners and icons please!!



420_honeys
JOIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyone you have to look at my new layout.

simple I know...but yum.

I just can't get enough of him ;)






off to Justin's. Gonna smoke.

I forgot I had this song downloaded. It just brought back so many memories.
It used to be me & Justin's song when we were homeless and when we lived at the hotel. Wow it seems like so long ago when all we did was coke and everything we bought was because of drug dealin. geez. I can't believe me-I-little Sam lived that life. Thats intense. What a hole.


"We Don't Care"

And all my people thats drug dealin jus to get by stack ya money till it gets sky high
We wasnt supposed to make it past 25 but the jokes on you we still alive
Throw your hands up in the sky and say we don't care what people say

If this is your first time hearing this
You are about to experience something cold man
We never had nothing handed took nothing for granted
Took nothing from no man, man i'm my own man
But as a shorty i looked up to the dopeman
Only adult man i knew that wasnt a broke man
Flickin starter coats man, Man you ount no man
We don't care what people say
This is for my niggas outside all winter
Cuz this summer they aint finna to say next summer im finna
Sittin in the hood like community colleges
This dope money here is Lil Treys scholarship
Cause aint no to tuition for havin no ambition
And aint no loans for sittin your ass at home
So we forced to sell crack rap and get a job
You gotta do something man your ass is grown

Drug dealin jus to get by stack ya money till it gets sky high

Kids Sing Kids Sing

We wasnt supposed to make it past 25 but the jokes on you we still alive
Throw your hands up in the sky and say we don't care what people say

The second verse is for my dogs working 9 to 5
That still hustle cause a nigga can't shine off $6.55
And everybody selling make-up, Jacobs
And bootleg tapes just to get they cake up
We put shit on layaway then come back
We claim other people kids on our income tax
We take that money cop work than push packs to get paid
And we don't care what people say
Momma say she wanna move south
Scratchin lottery tickets Eyes on a new house
Around the same time Doe ran up in dudes house
Couldnt get a job
So since he couldnt get work he figured hed take work
The drug game bolemic its hard to get weight
So niggas money is homo its hard to get straight
So we gon keep baking to the day we get cake.
And we dont care what people say
My Niggas

Drug dealin jus to get by stack ya money till it gets sky high

Kids Sing Kids Sing

We wasnt supposed to make it past 25 but the jokes on you we still alive
Throw your hands up in the sky and say we don't care what people say

You know the kids gonna act a fool
When you stop the programs for after school
And they DCFS them some of them dislecsic
They favorite 50 Cent song's 12 Questions
We scream, rock, blows, weed park
so now we smart
We aint retards the way teachers thought
Hold up hold fast we make mo'cash
Now tell my momma i belong in the slow class
It's bad enough we on welfare
You trying to put me on the school bus with the space for the wheel chair
Im trying to get the car with the chromy wheels here
You tryin to cut our lights like we dont live here
Look at whats handed us our fatheres abandoned us
When we get the hammers gone and call the ambulance
Sometimes i feel no one in this world understands us
But we dont care what people say
My Niggas

drug dealin jus to get by stack ya money till it gets sky high

Kids Sing Kids Sing

We wasnt supposed to make it past 25 but the jokes on you we still alive
Throw your hands up in the sky and say we don't care what people say


I hope we do live past 25! :p

I love having friends like you

xgothxdollx
subtledemise
resistorsuicide
eye_love_itt

you 4 are the best in the world :)
Thanks for being my friend<333

Well I modeled today. Old ladies can be bitches! I have two weeks left of this shit. I'm so happy.

Guess what? I'm expecting a call from Brent :) hehe I'm doin a drug deal with him. I hope ;D

I stayed at Justin's last night, we went to Slim Bob's and got wasted off a case. I blacked out half way through sex. HAHA
We found this new position...and it totally rocks my world everynight. mmm buddy ;o We slept naked...it was weird but he said when he woke up and saw me lying next to him it made him so happy <3
God *sigh* woo I gotta snap outta this....

He told me the sweetest thing this morning.
He said when he was shopping with his mom & grandma Judy that she was talking about me the whole. She said that I was so beautiful and the sweetest girl. And that I was the best girl for Justin... and stuff like that. I love how his family loves me.


:)

on that note p e a c e<3

I stayed at Justin's last night. We had some awesome makeup sex. When I say awesome I really really mean it.

Guess what? My car works now. Fuckin right dawgy. I'm so pissed at it. But I'm also happy- now I can trade it in to a dealer and get a little bit better car.
I guess there was just a carbon build up...? I don't really care- I can drive now. Thank god.

Now I gotta go clean the rest of Justin's puke outta my mom's car- coz she found it and stuff...damn. I have the worst headache now. Her voice just hurts my head sometimes.
Moms...god.



well p e a c e out <3

Thats me and my favorite friend. He's always there when needed. And hes a King.




I'm so sick. blahhhhhhhh.
I took a Benedryl and am drinkin 2 beers leftover from last night.

Justin sucks.

Dean rules.

I am totally getting sick. I hate my nose. This is all Justin's fault, givin me his cold and shit.
And he still hasn't called me. That butthead. I really wanted my OTEP cd to listen to when I get ready for the concert tomorrow....hehe YES KiTTiE & OTEP!


\m/



Is there NO free Porn on the damn internet?!
Justin's Girls Gone Wild dosnt work in my computer :(

I stayed the night at Justin's. I got perty tipsy and all I can really remember is rolling around in his blankets. It was nice <3

I gotta work 11-7 again tomorrow *thumbs up* money money monay!


p e a c e<3

I love my job!! I love how whenever I scan things it goes "BEEP" haha I love Frank's. I work 8 hours everyday, but Monday & Wednesday.
I'm gonna be rollin in the dough :)

Justin & I are cool. It's such a long story I don't even wanna go into- because it's in the past and fuck it.
I don't think I'm gonna see him tonight- well wait I lied. I gotta give his mom back all these jeans she wanted me to try on- and like hardly any of them fit. He's gotta work at 8 and I gotta work at 11 tomorrow.
It's soooo awesome having a job. hehe Well at Frank's.



My aunt Lori died. I didn't go to the showing or the funeral. damnit.



p e a c e<3 I gotta watch The Simpsons.

why is that a link? dmanit, uhg.

Have you ever been blown off by your very own boyfriend?
I have.
I didn't think something like this was possible.

My stomach is fucked up. I don't know what to do. What a jerk....what a fucking jerk. He better have one HELL of an "excuse". That motherfucker.

I got the job at Frank's. Court SUCKED. Jen was there with Ryan. I had more panic attacks than I thought was humanly possible and the motherfucker got off. There is no god...no hope.


Last night with Justin kinda really sucked. I confronted him about how NOT physical he's been with me lately. I hada nother crying fest in front of him.
He's going through exactly what I was going through when I broke up with him last christmas. I don't want that to happen again....but then he told me that he could'nt imagine living without me.
So tonight we're haing "our own night"...so hopefully we can talk. He never talks to me about shit. I'm always the only one talking. God thats just how I used to be. Fuckin shit.




p e a c e <3

Yesterday morning, Justin & me were lying in bed and he was cuddled up behind me....and I could feel his heart beating on my back. I got so caught up listeing that I couldn't tell our heart beats apart.Then the next thing I knew, Justin kissed the back of my neck and whispered, "I love you."
I had never felt so special. <3333

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mmmkay so today....

I modeled down at the art center. It was soooooooooo painful!! My foot fell asleep and when I had my breaks I would get up and practically fall on my face, because I couldn't feel my leg! It was humiliating. But worth it, because all of their paintings were wonderful. They all paint me so beautifully. Makes me feel special when I see that thats how other people see me :)

So all & all so far today- it's been prety good.





But I really need to get laid...poop :p




p e a c e <3